I've been hesitant to post all that much about how I've been doing for awhile now on account of feeling guilty for making you all sick of hearing about it, being as relentless and deep as it's been. But especially because I've been such a giant drag for so very long now, I want to report (finally!) some good news. Yesterday, had a decent day. Today, woke up and only stayed in bed for an hour (this is actually good...there have been some 6 1/2 and 7 1/2 hour days lately). This is significant because mornings are the hardest part of the day mood-wise for me. (If things are going to improve, they do so at night.)

I keep a mood chart (having no sense of time, it helps), and yesterday rated a mere -1 from neutral. Haven't had that since July(!) I'm certainly not going to call it anything yet (I don't micro-analyze every little shift), but as you can imagine, am hoping it continues, as in coming up to even a -1, I can function.

No idea why. Not going to question it. Just going to ride it as long as it lasts. Will be glad for the sheer relief of it, even if it turns out to be only short-lived. (Though hoping it is long!)