I'm on Citalopram for about 4 weeks now, and in the beginning it really

stopped me thinking of very dark thoughts, however now I am feeling this

anxiety, frustration, sheer lack of any reasons to carry on... I am seeing a

wonderful Psychologist fortnightly, (I phoned her because of these constant scary thoughts...)

but as she is paid by my Government subsidy, all she wants is to get me to

work again, just throw me an antidepressant! even though I told her I have

always HATED myself and ALWAYS wanted to die. I've pretty much lost family

friends etc over this mindset, but I can't seem to stop?

What is there to do, besides CBT, meditation... don't work.
Thanks for any ideas.