poor thing. It sounds like you are alone and hurting real bad. I took all the pills in the medicine cabinet when I was very young and my mom just told me not to play around with medicine? Im 32 and my parents STILL don't believe me about how I feel. I've come to the conclusion that they feel like it's THEIR fault if I didnt turn out perfect, so they just choose to pretend what im going through is not a big deal. Everyone is right you have to get some help. You can't do this alone. go to your counselor again or maybe even talk to a teacher that you trust. Anytime you feel upset just post it here. No one will judge you. Keep in touch.