I know that this may sound so odd, but sometimes during a certain time of the month (of my monthly cycle) where as I desire a true love so badly, I want to harm myself cause I have not had a guy for many years and I feel what is the use of thinking about a true love when no guy has shown interest in me. I am so angry at myself for even thinking these desires for a guy that I want to punish myself for this. I dwell on this (SI myself cause of wanting something that I really don't think I can have, a true love).
I have to say I feel so very odd for saying this but i had to let this out cause it has been on my mind for sometime now (and my only friend doens't really listen to me).