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Sorry for over posting but ugh... I'm in a unstable mood as it is... My mind is all over the place. My boyfriend isn't answering his phone... All day today... He calls me back but he never picks up when I'm calling. Then he calls back and I'm like "Hey what are you doing?" and he says "Uh... Uh in the bathroom"... I don't think I have reason to think I can't trust him but it's not easy when I'm in the middle of a breakdown as it is... I don't want to push him away with my suspicions... I've done it before... But it's a hard day... It's been a hard couple of months and today I feel much worse... Ugh he just called me back out of breath... Says he's on the way... WHY THE HECK DIDN'T HE ANSWER HIS PHONE?!?! I'm gonna have a nervous break down and wreck everything around me. I see it coming but I can't stop it. WHY WAS HE OUT OF BREATH? I'm reading too much into it... I know I am... But I can't stop the thoughts... I always feel like I want to run away when I feel this way... I'm afraid one day I will... I'm so broken....
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I'd lock my hands behind my head, I'd cover my heart and hit the deck, I'd brace myself for the impact if I were you.
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