Today was better. I haven't had a panic attack today, which is HUGE. I so don't understand therapy. The session felt SO horrible, and yesterday was pretty awful, but today is the best day I've had anxiety-wise and with body memories since I was triggered. So, maybe all of the yuck yesterday helped...or at least helped enough for me to get some breathing room, which I really needed.

T hasn't left a message yet. He goes out of town a lot on weekends, so I'm guessing that he's not even around/checking his messages. I know he'll leave one when he gets back. I hope it's tomorrow instead of Monday, but I'm grateful that I'm finally (FINALLY!) to the point where I feel safe and okay about it.

Thanks for letting me share this here. I don't know how I would have got through all of these years of therapy without PC, for REAL. I can't even imagine it.