maybe i am as awful as they said. i don't deserve to be loved. i'm very black and dark inside. they couldn't punish me enough to make me good enough. i try washing myself and my clothes and my hands but it doesn't make me feel any cleaner. c*tting made me feel better. i could see the slimmy dirty inside come out with the blood. dr carol made me stop and now i'm dirty inside again. it has to come out. no one seems to be able to tell me how to stop being so dirty inside.
i was never "too pretty" i am really very very ugly and dirty.
don't like me because i'm really poison and you might get in trouble like everyone else who tried to like me or be my friend or tried to help.
it's pretty useless.
i think i give up
i don't think i'm worth the fight
n.