@alwaysrejoice, I cant take the meds because, well I can take my usual meds but the ones im referring to are valium which make me sleepy, I cant take that before a visit, if they think im under influence of anything they wont let me in, and i wont be much help to my friend. its been about 2 years but knowing my luck majority still be their

@Ygrec23, thank you your words brought a smile to my face, I just wish I felt as courageous as I sound I used to occasionally work sunday visits, so thats going to feel odd, slowly feeling the anxiety building up, but like you said I will only be there for a short period, and time will go faster once me and my mate start chatting away...its just getting their.