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Sounds like a productive session. The part of your post that really gets my attention right now is about part of you not wanting to get better. It makes sense. Being this way, doing these things, has served a purpose. It has helped you in the past. It's hard to let go of something that has worked for you, even if there are better ways.

That's good that you know you will always be able to see your T, even if you are better.

I miss mine. I really like talking to him. Not being able to see him anymore is like losing a friend, even though I can e-mail him any time.

Oh, it's nice to know that your T endorses you coming here too! This is a good place. If I didn't have all of you here, I don't think I could deal with being dismissed from therapy. Posting here is more rewarding to me than writing to my T. I did finally tell my T that I was coming here, the last time I saw him. I was nervous about telling him - almost like I was being disloyal or something. But he had no problem with it either, and wondered why I was nervous to tell him.

Take Good Care, Carrie. I'm glad to have you as a friend.


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