Thanks. Hanging in there. The majority of the time I will be working or sleeping or attending bipolar support meetings and PTSD sexual trauma while in the military support meetings. They don't know about the trauma I experienced while in the service, so when they freak out about bed bugs, I'm just bewildered. Was advised not to tell them my trauma experience with them or I would be having to reexperience it when I told them. And as usual, when I tell them something, they tell everyone else.

If my sister wants to talk, my t said to just tell her that I need a little more time to think about things and then we can sit down after she comes back from her cruise (at which time I won't be living with her). I'd be willing to talk to her and say hey, you didn't tell me your rules when I moved up here, had you done so, I would not have moved. I was also informed only of your seizure disorder, not all the other stuff like the drug seeking behavior, telling me I can't bring my gay friends home for coffee, and so on.

It has gotten so bad, that if she tells me to move out, I would even go to a domestic violence shelter (yes, her behavior qualifies me to do so, I checked with them), until my VA apartment is ready on the first.

I'm not sure how my sister went downhill so drastically over the years. Watching her try and function is really sad. I do care about her, I just have to do it from far away.

What I am doing to maintain: when not working I am reading up on toxic people (this helps a lot), working on my plan to leave (did all my laundry and it's ready to pack into boxes). Came up with a plan to move my stuff (mostly clothes and paperwork and my computer to my new place) and avoididng my sister as much as possible, and coming here for support. Also have a meeting or two for bipolar and people who experienced sexual trauma while in the military. Only 7 days to go and keeping a countdown also helps. Today I work overtime so that helps as well.

Keep the support coming. I know I can do it no matter what.