Thank you all for your input. It really means a lot to get a response. I guess after 13 years of not getting better, I was hoping that now, knowing the right diagnosis, finding the right combo would come quickly. I am getting so frustrated. But I suppose in time it will all work out. I just want to feel better so I can finally be the wife and mother I know I can be. My family is my whole world and I know that I am a good mom, but I want to be better. My time cycling between depression and hypomania makes me feel like I will never have stability in my life....ugh....