Hi everyone, thanks for your support and good advice. Yes Ozzie, i think you are right about this "me" thing, i just need to give myself a chance not to have to be perfect and just accept that side of me. Trying to.
Thanks Amiee and FearsomeAnna, you're right this trip is a once in a lifetime opportunity, on an up at the mo. so i can totally see that and am going to try many different things, so that when i go back i can see the difference in me. I think already i'm more confident in doing practical things like getting trains, and booking trips to places - which i'm quite proud of. I'm in Calcutta at the mo., it's in the north east of India, i was hoping being in the north i wouldn't be swelteringly hot, how wrong was i!!
Fuzzybear, sometimes a hug can say a thousand words so i really appreciate both the bear hug and the support!!
Thankyou all for listening and reading.
lots of love Abby