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Originally Posted by alwaysrejoice
happycheeks: I have given myself black eyes in the past! How embarrassing having to make up a lie as to how I got it! Like everyone else said we can't tell you why you do it or what you have. I don't think my experiences doing this was a nervous breakdown, your story may be different, you have to get professional help, you need it and deserve it.
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I agree with this. Also here to add a voice of understanding. I've done quite a bit of stuff like this too. While I've not given myself a black eye, I've done much voice-thrashing screaming and flailing, smacked my hands into things, repeatedly slapped my head (hard), repeatedly thrown myself against walls, and have even bit myself in the arm. I've not done
any of it intentionally or with forethought. In fact, there wasn't much thinking at all going on at such times(!) Just sheer being out of control, and many times it would happen so fast that there was no time to get rational in order to even attempt mellowing or stopping it. It's no fun to admit these things, but it's the only way to let you know that I understand that fear, happycheeks and definitely understand your being concerned what is happening and hope that you are able to gain some understanding talking to a T about it.
Lots of
(And you are NEVER a waste or an idiot, happycheeks!!! It worries you and we're hear to listen, give a shoulder and help as we are able.
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