I'm crying and tears are falling down my face as I type this out. I wish this pain stopped. I don't like my "mother". She's more of a stranger to me. I wish she was never my mother. This is harsh but I wish she died. That person causes me so much misery that there is a point where I have an urge to cut myself. She called my brother a gormless s**t just because he asked a question to my mum. She say I can't do things for myself and that I act like a 2 year old. I wish someone could be there for me now. I feel sad. I wish this pain gone away. I wish I could cut myself now. I want to bleed. It will take away the pain that she causes me. She's having a go at me just because I was in bed around about 3pm. From then, she has been horrible to me. She has called me a lazy mare and all sorts. She is nice to me after but expects me to be happy. She made me cry? When she is horrible to me, I just feel so depressed that I need to cut myself. I wish I could have a knife here and I want the blood to come out and this is the negative emotions releasing...

Thank you mother for making me want to cut myself. I deserve better but I feel cutting is the only punishment I deserve. I deserve to cut myself. This is punishment. I should try to hang myself or strangle myself. I wish this pain stopped. I haven't hurt myself but I'm thinking about cutting. The only way I can get better is by cutting myself. I need it. Knife is a good friend to me. He can help me realise that I deserve to ruin my skin and for blood to come down my skin. I feel better as I think of cutting myself in my mind. Other people deserve happiness but me? I deserve pain as I am a horrible person.

I'm sorry Please don't be harsh.