So three weeks ago I attempted suicide and now I'm dealing with the fact that I'm still here. I've never felt this low before. Plus they took me off Effexor, Epival and Risperidone while I was in the hospital all at once. No tapering at all. So I'm going through withdrawals. It is really making me mistrust doctors and not wanting to take the Zoloft they gave me. Which so far is doing nothing.

It is just getting so hard to keep going on. I've been depressed for 20 years. I'm not expecting a 10/10 of happiness but anything over a 2 would be nice. I just feel like I'll never be able to cope with life. I can't live on my own so am back with my Mom which is causing all sorts of problems in my mind.

I don't know. I just needed to post this and tell someone I'm suffering. I feel so alone out here.