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I have been so happy recently (mainly because of finding PC in April 2011).
Some thing has changed though. I feel like my mind is slipping away. My voices are back (with a vengance), I find myself terrified, and alone.
When I leave my home though I see lots of people want to be with me (its weird), I say 'be with me then', but it does not happen. I am alone looking in the mirror and self reflecting upon myself.
Its so weird, I am told I have a lot to offer, but I cannot share anything in a personal way (meaning to express in words what is in my mind).
So I feel like I am losing my mind, because I cannot share whats inside.
In this, my inner voice is back ( I know its just myself), but it scares me.
My voice tells the truth , I guess that's what scares me.
So........................I am slipping. I am constantly fighting the re-lapse of self harm (I am winning though because of friends @ PC).
Winter is coming, I may be on the streets this year (I might as well be now its that bad here).
Please can someone say something that will keep my mind in place.
I am not a bad person, I am a good soul. My mind though is getting tired.
Help.
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