Nothing is helping to get past the fear I have
My T's can't help
I have major surgery coming up in a few weeks and extreme fears including death anxiety with it all
T telling me I could die any day and for any reason isn't helping
T telling me that all surgery is risky doesn't help
T saying anything else doesn't seem to be helping
I'm angry, scared, confused and mostly extremely lonely and feeling alone with this
Not sure what I want by writing this, I'm not sure which direction to go in right now or how to keep walking forwards