I am starting to feel more bummed out , lonely , and just uggggh feel like screaming. I was supposed to work on costumes today. I am the costume maker around here every year for my kids, a few friends , a few family members. I am just not into it this year, I didn't get a thing done. My mood is... I dont know. Its not good. I don't want to do anything, have zero motivation.

I feel like crying. I don't even know over what. I feel lonely in a house full of kids. I feel like screaming and crying and hurting myself. I'm not even sure why. I just feel extreme pain right now. Pain for my future, pain for my past. No matter how many people I am around I always feel lonely.