Chalmette, I have realized that I am an alcoholic but I just can't go to a meeting right now either. I've tried, even drove to one but sat in the parking lot. I know I need to go but can't find the courage to so I can relate to what you're feeling.

There are aa meetings online if you're interested. I have found it very helpful and they are at all times of the day. I've even gotten a sponsor online and have started working the steps with her.

The online meetings are aaonline.net