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i feel as though i am not connected to life. i do my best to care for the mother but that prevents us from getting out and making new friends. So busy i have tried to keep so this month is less problematic but this week loss and lost and trouble focusing. has hurled me into a scary feelingless depression pit.
The mother said yesterday, she wished she were dead. i heard my efforts to provide for her were not good enough. Those of you who have best friends...you feel connected right? The mother would miss us but would the world really? How do i connect to the world? What can i do?
Give of the self...what happens if you are all given out and there is nothing left?
Understand this ranting, is not easy. In fact no reply is necessary. There are not answers to be found. Make a connection i must. Create a connection i must. Stop whining i will.
My sincere apologies for wasting your time.
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