Anika! I agree with roadrunner that it is showing good judgement to know when to back off when you're feeling over-committed. (I over-committed big time a couple years ago for Halloween. As much as I love it, what started out as fun got to a point where it definitely wasn't.) Best to put on the brakes before that! And to recognize that you are struggling with other things as well and honor the space you need for that? Really, well done!
No need to apologize, Anika! This is a great place to be able to talk about your thoughts. We're all in this together.
You are in my thoughts, sweetie...