Hey pisces, you are right on so many levels. One, I do isolate, two, I don't make even the simplest decision or move right now without consulting T. Is that a good way to live? No. But I THINK better than how badly I was messing things up before, but really still not very good. It is certainly not my place to judge or advise you. it sounds like you are choosing to face life and love head on, and that can only inspire us scaredy-cats! thanks, and I am sorry for being so bossy. I don't know when to quit sometimes.