Do you ever just miss SI? No trigger, no reason, just miss it?

I do, a lot lately. I'm not even sure why. It's like there's this void that I can only fill with some sort of self-destructive habit. Maybe that's what I miss. Maybe I miss feeling like I always had something to depend on, a release if I needed it. I miss how it just blocked out everything, even for just a minute. I really miss those minutes. Maybe there's some trigger that I'm not noticing, although I usually identify them pretty well.

I think I just miss it. No hidden reason, no trigger, just miss it. Alot sometimes...