Greg and I just got married on October 5, 2011 (less than a month ago). This is a very long story and a bit complicated one.
Greg and I "met" in Tagged on August 13, 2010. I had had been surfing the net for more than a year at that time. I started surfing six months after the death of my British fiance, (Colin Carroll) on October 31, 2008. He bought me a laptop two months before his demise due to cancer; his objective of buying me the laptop and which he made me promise was for me to write our love story and publish it in the net after his death; his cancer was terminal and we both knew at that time that his life won't be longer than two months then according to his doctors.
I was grieving when I started writing our story and could not finish it so I left it in one of my files; all 26 chapters.
Since then I had joined some wholesome groups such as giftoflovingkindness.com and two more until I stumbled on chatting activities. I met a lot of people with various mental and "attitudinal" disorders which really scared me.
Then I happened to join Tagged; this is where I met Douglas, the first guy who I had some emotional involvement; but I was confused then; everything was just so unbelievable. Then I found out that everything that Douglas said to me was a lie; it actually devastated me when I realized that I was just dealing with an internet character.
One day I saw Douglas and his new lady being tagged in Facebook; it was an announcement that he actually came to the Philippines as he promised, but not for me...it was for that other lady.
When Greg and I met sooner afterwards, I told him about my experience with Douglas...but no sooner did he had proven that he was the perfect man for me.
He visited me twice in the Philippines and in that second visit we got married.
Now my papers are in the process of preparing my visa to get me to the U.S. where Greg is...but we have a big problem..it's me.
I cannot trust Greg despite everything he did for me. I always quarrel him every time we chat. I accuse him of being a "slut puppy" who chase "sluts" in the net; a cyber sex maniac. He is very patient with me but I just cannot trust him and continues to quarrel him...this makes me very sad. What's wrong with me?