I didn't know where to put this because really it's a mixture of things. I'm just feeling so overwhelmed at the moment.

I wasnted to share something I just wrote.

It could be triggering... I'm scared to share this really..

I don't know what is wrong with me today. I watched North Country this morning and I loved it. There were scenes though of workplace sexual harrassment and a r@pe scene. I don't know if watching that made me feel this way. I'm thinking that I can relate to the movie which isn't a positive thing to do. I then start to doubt myself, doubt my past. Was it r@pe? Was it assault? Is it all in my head? Am I making it up? Why is it that I knew what r@pe was at such a young age? Why is it that even back then I was dealing with :daydreams" even before ******n [my ex] came around.

Dr. R [my psychiarist] mentioned words before like remnants of PTSD, sexual assault, etc but I still don't understand. I don't know what' wrong with me, why today i'm so bothered. I don't have a clue what to do next....