NSC, you are where you are because of the emotional environment that your parents are providing for you. Childhood is for emotional development and when our parents don't do a good job helping with the emotional development it leaves us with issues. It doesn't surprise me that your parents aren't able to help you because they probably have no further skills then what they are presently showing. A therapist is really, really important. Have you asked them for a therapist? Please stop hurting yourself because your parents lack skills and knowledge.