I tried to take some steps to get back in control again today.
I emailed my T. Told him why I feel nervous about talking about the insiders. Told him I was wanting to hurt myself too (though I don't think I would).
I phoned Muriel (mental health team worker) and told her I am not feeling safe. We ended up talking about lots of stuff - about the pressure of work (she had some good ideas for that - which showed me how out of control I feel at the moment) and about the SI, about the priest (she seemed to understand) and even about the DID. She said I can call her again tomorrow if I need to.
I arranged to see my GP tomorrow about my leg which is not really getting better yet. It is still quite red and very swollen.
Still lots of nervousness around - alice is upset and scared because I have made the formal complaint about the priest now, and shula is angry though I don't really know what about. Waiting for her to tellme. I'm trying to get them to journal.