Something at work happened recently. I felt as who I am today was taken hostage by a very young angry imposter.

Today I didn't even want to go therapy. Climbed in bed even, hoping I'd fall asleep and miss it. But I went,so thankful I did. When I spit it out, the thing that had happened and how I felt now, T gave what I'd said back to me in a way that compared to my earlier expereices growing up. I then remembered something and fit the pieces togehter. As we did this together (this is working through as another poster enquired) the power I'd given this other person began to dissolve, I began to feeel myself again. I relaised that before therapy I lived in a constant state of being triggered, and what was different this time was I had a new way of being that I was desperate to get back too, I didn't like how I become when triggered, didn't want to have to live like that now I've tasted better.

T said did the not wanting to come be because it was to painful to talk about? Partly that, partly because no one could help me back when I was younger.

Before I left she asked how I felt now? I said the person concerned has become right sized again in my mind and I can continue to live the life I have gained now.

So pleased that triggers are much more uncommon for me now, it helped me appricate just how much therapy has changed me and my life now.