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Originally Posted by preternatural
My mother tried to hide her pain when I was little. It made me try to hide my pain too. I didn't want her to see me suffer or think that she was a bad parent. I was just diagnosed as bipolar. I wished she had let me in then. I would have done my best to help her. I would have also understood so much more about myself. Not only could I have been there for her earlier on in lifelong struggle of suffering, but I would have known why it also affected my sister and me. My mother is undiagnosed now, but we've made strides in our relationship since I've been diagnosed.
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My children know that I have Bipolar, I want them to know that when I am depressed that ii has nothing to do with them, when I am manic, again, not their fault, and when I am in hospital especially I don't want them too feel too scared. My father had Bipolar1 undiagnosed until later years, My family revolved around his untreated illness, That is what I want to protect my children from. I'm sorry that it was painful for you, I am glad you have found a way to be closer.
