we had long conversations about it and i feel more at ease. i guess i miss understood him. the conversation itself makes me really uncomfortable to talk about but am glad we did so that we both are on the same page. it felt good being about to talk to him about it.

he has said that if i want to have sex with another man he would let me (depending on who it is) he rather me do it with permission than behind his back, cheat on him. it feels wierd to hear that. although i would never think i could actually do it. its just not me