A lot of the scary stuff gets talked about in third person when we do IFS, and that's easier for me. SHE felt that way--the child, not me. Also my eyes are closed so I don't have to look at T.

Other times when I want to be looking at her, I've started a sentence and stopped over and over. Then I look at the clock and see time is running out and I just blurt it out. Sometimes I have put a pillow over my face.

Often I first ask my T if it's okay to tell her anything and of course she says yes. I tell her it's hard and that I will be embarrassed or whatever. I don't cry so it's usually that I'll blush.

She's seen me lose control already--not crying but in weird positions on the couch, or the time I scribbled all over the papers, so it's not so scary.

What are you afraid of? Losing control? Crying and not being able to stop? Of your T judging you? Can you tell her what you're afraid will happen when you talk about the scary stuff? Then she can help you in her own way.