Yes JD, your right, I see it, I see the PTSD and how it blocks progress. I am glad I did this thread after all. You have really helped me, and I can tell that I have to hang on to this accomplishment today. I see what you mean about the PTSD making it hard, that is just how it has been and I really didn't get that from my therapist though. I wish he was that on track, but he isn't. It is actually his off track that has corrected my track and helped me if that makes any sense. I think I just needed to know that I am right in my suspicion of my attorney not being right. My therapist didn't get that at all. No this thread helped me see that. It was not that I didn't want to take action against my attorney, it is that I need to know where he is messing up. I am starting to see that now. I started to focus on that when I read over my copy of the depositions that he finally sent me.

My big problem is that my brain was shutting down, and I couldn't look at the damage.
And I was afraid to read my deposition because I flashed back at the end of it. I have just been afraid of my brain shutting down like it did and I couldn't work that day. I have to function and I can't have that happen. I think I am figuring that out, at least I hope so, I think the more I learn about how this process works and where my attorney is messing up I will fell better about where I see a path to fight back.

Yes, JD, I see exactly what your saying about the PTSD, I just had to be more consciously aware of it.

Thanks for your help, I am getting what you mean. It is hard, but it really isn't my therapist that is getting me there it is coming here and thinking and learning that has basically covered years of what a therapist could accomplish on one session a week.

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