Not sure if this belongs here, but here goes...

I'm 17. All my friends have tried or regularly smoke weed. Except me. I've always been the cop's daughter, too afraid to try anything. Maybe that's good. But I'm fighting the urge to try it now. I want to relax, to hang out with my best friend whom I haven't seen in many months (he's my potential "hook-up"). I want my anxiety and my nervous reservations to go away when I'm hanging out with people. I guess I'm not asking you guys if I should smoke or not - I'm asking you to help convince me from doing it in the first place. My grades are great now - I'm so close to getting all Bs. So why would I want to mess that up? I'd talk to my therapist about this strange inner urge when I see her next, but it's as if all she cares about is proving to me that I've got a condition I so very much know I don't. (see here)

I miss her understanding. I need my usual good judgement right now, more than ever. I just crave the feeling of trying something new, something on the rebellious side. I feel like an outcast. Maybe peer pressure has finally gotten to me, I don't know.