((((Purpleflyingmonkeys))))))
Big hugs your way


I'm sorry you're feeling so out of control. Please keep posting if it helps. Try to take deep breaths, square your shoulders, feet firmly flat on the ground. Try to think calming thoughts -- you are a good person, you are strong, you are loved.
I'm sure what I"m saying is just making you angry, and I'm sorry about that, but this is all I know to do when I get upset and feel out of control.
Lots of warm, safe hugs