thanks everyone

there really isn't anyone as far as the hospital/medical team i can speak with ... i phoned the surgeons office a few weeks ago and tried asking but was told he is booked up solid and when I tried to ask a few questions about his previous experience was told I should know better than that.

Psychologically this is hard on so many levels; and I want more from a T than anyone could humanly provide.

I think my T's are doing what stormyangels said as far as validating and providing logic; but the moment I heard the risks of the surgery, logic hasn't begun touching the fear.

Tree , I don't think there is anything that can be said that would really ... started writing that and then thought of something that might help to hear but it wouldn't be true so I'm not sure. What is true is that sometimes we do need to provide their scripts

Echoes, thanks being reminded of those things really does give some comfort

learning, that's what i wanted to know as well; percentages. I was told it is high risk and the reasons why, but not any kind of percent to go with it or a percent of risk by not having the surgery. Thanks a lot for your words

Sky, I'm not sure ... looking into that to see if there's something I can take
that would help

Thanks likewater; I've been wondering about imagery, relaxation techniques as well ... something that I'm not good with doing

Can'texplain thanks for thinking i'm sane