Just an update (updates help). Sister and brother-in-law are going on a cruise on the 30th. My apartment will be ready on the 3rd. I am counting down the days until they leave (this is day number 5).

I do need to address how this has affected me. I came here hoping to help, to be a good sister and be near family and start my company. I am working for another company (it's okay for now). I also came here happy and strong. Over the course of the past several months I've slowly become drained of my positive energy. Most of the time I am at my sister's I feel numb. I suppose that is a coping mechanisim. The things I use to enjoy I no longer enjoy. I also use to come here to offer support and I just haven't had the energy for that or my hobbies. I can do my job, but the rest of the time I just walk around feeling like a dazed zombie. I pray that a depressive episode is not coming on (I'm taking my meds like I'm suppose to).

I am also in the training stages at work and this will be my last week in training.

I have become so disorganized that I actually missed a t appointment today. Next time I see her, I will be in my new place. At least I hope it will be ready by then.

But no matter what happens, I will be out of her house by the time she gets back from her cruise. I know it's only 5 days, but it seems this toxic relationship I have with my sister knows no bounds. Time seems to stand still.

I will keep you updated as time goes on and I really appreciate all the support you guys have to give.

P.S. I think I am learning why so many people with mental illness have strong family issues because they really don't understand it, don't want to understand it and when it needs attention, well, the relationships get worse.