An update... I've been here so long that I am definately showing signs of depression. When I'm not working, I am sleeping.

I came up with a countdown of how many more days I have to put up with my sister (5). She goes on a cruse this weekend and I will be moving during her cruise.

But I must say, walking around feeling numb and walking like a zombie with a blank look on my face is the norm these days. My brain just can't seem to register that I only have to see her for 5 more days.

I've learned my lesson on this one. No more living with family. And with me being bipolar, I feel like a freak around them. In many groups I have been in, I've noticed a lot of people with a serious mental illness, are estranged or partially estranged from their family... I think my bipolar has a lot to do with it in my case. My best friend agrees...we have very similiar backrounds and his family treats him the same.

I'll probably come on here and give a daily update as moving time nears closer.

It's so nice to have this place to come to. I use to come and help people, I'd like to get to that place again, just want to feel okay again, just want to reclaim my positive energy.

Thanks for reading this.