hi Neechee. first of all to psychcentral. I'm glad you found us.

in my opinion, the relationship you're in is not healthy and you should be finding a way to leave. He's basically abusing you - that's not ok. And it's probably not going to get better. Of course it's your decision but that's my first reaction. But I would run, and fast.

Have you talked to your therapist about your current relationship and the violence?

You don't have to be alone - you DO have your doctor to help you and remember you can get more friends and you can even get another relationship, but you undo years of getting beaten or hurt if it goes there.

take care!