Dear JourneyUpward, you have my deepest condolences on the loss of your father. I lost mine 3 yrs. ago and it still stings, so I understand what you must be going through. I wish you well in getting through your loss and your grieving. Something I do to get through deep depression is I chat in a strictly bipolar chat room. It helps to be amongst others who know what it's all about and listen and offer support. The same goes for coming onto Psyche Central. Also I try and occupy my mind by doing crossword puzzles, playing video games (which really takes me out of my own mind and distracts the wretched awful thoughts) and then I sometimes veg out on t.v. if there are some decent shows to distract my negative thoughts. I try to do some chores so I have a feeling of accomplishment as well.