thanks all. I'm just a bit worried that he'll say I'm just 'reacting" to the absense of lithium now and being irrational or some other symptom of hypomania and tell me I'm too 'unstable' to make a reasonable decision about the change of doctor. That's the kind of crap I get out of him lately. "oh it's just the bipolar talking" or "you're only becoming manic, you aren't rational" Yes, he actually says that to me but the thing is, this is the most rational I've ever been in my opinion. I'm thinking very clearly and that's why i want to change doctors. I reconize that this is an unproductive relationship. Isn't that a GOOD thing????
Pdocs confuse me.
goodnight
angel
ps., thanks everyone for the great replies. thanks bptoo for suggesting this site. It's been wonderful so far.

"man's belief that he is the only intelligent being has not done him good" JRR Tolkien