It has been an on and off relationship where I was all committed to him and he was like a roller-coaster of emotions. I moved to the states because I had it with his insults and excuses to why he treated me so bad. I always ended up forgiving him and trying so hard for this relationship to work. After 3 months, I called him again because I was feeling a lot of guilt since I moved, I never told him I moved just until the day I called him. We started to talk again and at first he gave me hope and then again the fights, his insults, throwing everything to my face. He said that everything's my fault, that I'm the one who doesn't know how to work a relationship, that he's sick and tired of me, that I'm ignorant, that I'm the one who needs to change, that it's because of me the relationship never works, etc etc. Then he called later saying he was sorry, that he wanted to work things out. I was willing to move back and try to work things out, even though I was scared of doing it, I tried to talked to him about it and it ended up in a huge fight. I changed my number...I've had it. I read about narcissist relationships and everything points that I was in one. I'm feeling guilty again...is it my fault? I don't know what to do...I'm feeling sick and in a huge, deep depression. Please help!