Thanks for the reply. I guess I chose the wrong wording when I said that now I'm lost, etc. I have actually been that way for as long as I can remember. I can't find anything to grasp, and I know that I need somebody that I can talk with (even electronically). I agree with you that the only person who can really, really know what you're going through is someone who has either been through it of is going through it now. I think that you make a good point when you said that you deal with things in the moment instead of thinking about the whole day, week, month ahead. I can't even imagine looking forward to anything, because it winds up being the same as the day before. Depression has knocked me down and stepped on me for so long now. It hurts a lot.....