Dijmart i'll be honest i think i get some of that but i know i don't get all of it. I understand to a point the puttin on the mask/denial of sadness anger emotions is not an answer- but yet how to feel those at times. Anger more issue i think with me on that. I go to sleep a lot after maddening things happen which then leads usually to sadness. Need to work on that i know, but yet to act and feel it- idk if That's good. Like i said i understood what was posted to a point i know the mask the fake face denial is not the correct way. And i get part i think on *mind creating issues ie something in the present triggers some thing in me of past that at some way i feel is the same but isn't. Try best to catch that stuff as best as i can. I realize at some point- "gasp the feelings of how my mother or someone else use to make me feel and i'm taking what's going on now like that even thou it's not the same"- ie my boyfriend is just caring- not doing what my mom use to. I try best to catch those but usuall after thoughts is where is arises rather than the now in sense. :-| don't know if that makes sense. But other thoughts idk where they come from well logically i know most stem from past but why the arise again idk why. Need work i know but try my best. Hope i'm not totally on a different page of what your trying to tell me. I do appreciate it but idk- :-| sigh. But thank you. I don't get stuff sometimes like even in the work book i'm doing some of it i have to redo cuz i didn't get it the first time. Frustrating thou keep trying