Thanks Rose, I have been thinking about what I could sell etc. But the economy is poor and I really don't have something that could cover the expenses and I already went that route last year. And I am being realistic about letting the Mustang go and hopefully someone will come forward that will actually have time for him. Last year was really hard and I am trying to recognize that I have to make changes that will make my life easier to manage. I realize that with everything going on, I honest don't have time for the Mustang, and I have to recognize that he isn't getting any younger and I have to sell him while his age is young enough. And I had a trainer work with him last year and she really did like him a lot. She is looking for a customer who might buy him so she can have him on her farm and get to work with him. If I was not so financially bad off I would have him with her myself, but I don't have the money for that and I am not going to give him away, he is worth money.

And there are laws that protect livestock and my neighbor is liable for the damage. But I still have to go through the legal system etc. And getting a group of people to present any motion of anger isn't going to change anything.

I was ok this morning until I went outside and I am now flooded with whatever chemicals and I hate this. I am trying very hard, its very hard. These days are tough to get through. I am ok and then I am not ok and it is hard, very challenging to work through.
I am doing my best I can even feel it in my hands. It is probably because I have to free lung the Mustang and there is a part of me that doen't want to interact with him and bond so I have to work on how to do that, get that mind set. I have to learn it, figure it out somehow. I have a lot to learn and I am not always aware of what is going to cause that chemical dump. Then it just comes over me and it is very hard to shake, and there are days where it just takes the day away.

I am trying to figure out how to overcome it.

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