Hi I think I can understand how you feel I work full time have had bipolar for 20 years I am new also to the forum the only real friend I have is my dad etc I just shut my self off from all others like you I get in to my car go home and shut the doors etc I think that I feel lonely and hate the bipolar label etc bit I think that there is light at the end of the tunnel we have too all work together to try and help one another we can just spend 10 mins aday writing a mood diary I do it for my self only I think that we worry about things that may or may not happen or what people think of us I am not open about the bipolar at work I cope and deal with it in my own way et I hope that I can give you a bit of encouragement that there are people out there who want to help etc I find that you need to do thinks in my own time but that does not please everybody etc dustystar13