Yes I used the "Big T" word here in this post. Just wondering how many others say things about themselves online, opening themselves up, maybe a bit to much. I am feeling very regretful about sharing so much of my life here, leaving myself vulnerable, to others interpetation and judgement.. .the abuse..the processes..DID, PTSD, I dont know..I am so grateful to find kindred hearts here, kind people, and ones who offer support and guidance when they suffer so much themselves..but...I am wondering why some of the people who wlecomed me openly before I started posting part of my life..suddenly..disappear..putting up a wall of silence...which is ok I guess..I can keep it shoved in..just dont understand why I have to in order to fit in..thanks for letting me express this..and again..I believe the folks here at PC are great..just me I guess being reflective of my ability to put foot in mouth when posting online, which opens up alot of vulberability issues..I have reviewed DocJohn's words of wisdom on his home page about online issues such as this, so that was very much appreciated..thanks again for letting me voice an insecurity..surviving and living with abuse is sucky enough..sorry..think I will try and fit the "Big T" word back into the dark abyss...yucky mood this morning sorryyyy everyone...