((((((((((((((((((Evangelista)))))))))))))

I have big trust issues I think. Even with t, I want to talk but I am unable to mostly. I have to write it down or she doesn't get the information and even then, I am not able to write down most stuff.

When I put up a wall of silence, it doesn't have anything to do with the other person. It's due to my brain making it impossible to speak out.

I for one really enjoy reading your posts. I'm sorry that I am often not able to respond to people. It's not because I don't want to.

So often when I get ready to write or speak, inside my head, all I hear over and over again is horrible things. If I shut up, it gets less.

I'm so sorry you are having a difficult time right now. Please know that I care.