SplitImage… They ought to put your post on the wall of the new comers meeting. You nailed it right on the head.

“I can give you a dozen rational arguments as to why I shouldn't drink and yet I still want it. i want the escape from my feelings that alcohol gives. I don't want to face that my life is really what it is”

For me, alcohol wasn’t the problem, it was the cure. It fixed my view the world enough so I could live in it. But at a price. And the longer I went to that well, the higher the price went.

I am not that worried, given enough time, you will find that the costs of drinking far outweigh the benefits it gives you.

Just remember, there are alcoholics living lives free of the bondage of booze, and doing so happily. And you can too. Don’t just go to meetings splitimage, get a sponsor, and do the steps.

Richard