I'm tired of them trying to make me feel guilty. I'm tired of them thinking I should just be fine. I'm tired of being blamed for things that happened to me.

As you may know from other threads, my dad is moving out because my mom found out that, shockingly, his past abuse actually bothers me. He's probably getting an overseas job that would only have him here on holidays.

The problem? Well, my mom has decided to start acting like this is such a huge inconvenience for her. She used to always complain about how he never helped out or did anything besides drink. Now she's acting like he's always been so helpful and she won't know what to do without him here. Saying she doesn't know what she's going to do. She's even blamed me for certain things that happened, with things like "I guess he just couldn't take all your crying" yeah, babies should know better.

I don't really know how to explain this. I don't know if its even completely because of them or not, but I'm starting to feel like I should apologize for the consequences of things that happened, or even apologize for the things that happened. Then maybe that would make the guilt go away. I don't even know why I feel guilty though. Logically I know I shouldn't apologize for anything. I know none of this is my fault. But it doesn't feel that way. Once again all the problems in my "family" can be traced back to my existence, and it sucks.