OE - We are friends here at PC and I hope you will please forgive me if what I write feels hurtful to you, because that is not my intention. I just feel as though I should be honest with you, because as I continue to read your posts in this thread, my thoughts are that that your situation is causing severe health and and also financial issues for you. Your life seems almost to be in a "pause" state, rather than a moving forward state.

While it isn't in my profile here, I also suffer from PTSD. Every time I get into a car, I have to deal with it. But I deliberately chose not to hire a lawyer or attend the sentencing after the event happened years ago. We took pictures, wrote a statement and then let the legal process take over and sentence the guy. I just wonder if I handle my PTSD better because I chose not to let it suck my life away...

Just wanting the best for you. I hope you understand that.